Is It Possible To Have A Movie-Like Life Transformation

Move to a new city, start your dream career, fall in love and have a massive change of appearance all whilst 'Suddenly I See' by KT Tunstall is playing in the background. That's a realistic expectation right?....right? Okay so yes this might seem childish and naive but I really want to have a somewhat movie transformation of my life. I always have big ambitions, massive, skyscraper-sized dreams and wants but when it comes to actually pursuing them, I become quite the chicken. But is it even possible?

Curiosity & What Ifs

Have you ever felt like you wanted to wake up as someone new each day? Like wouldn't that be cool? Imagine one day you wake up and you are this ultra-famous actor who walks red carpets, attends the fanciest of parties and enjoys the luxuries in life. Then the next day you are this farmer who lives a slow life in the countryside with beautiful fields and animals that you take care of. Curiosity makes me wanna experience everything, have all the hobbies, all the careers, all the aesthetics. The problem is sometimes I feel like I don't know who I am. I want to do so many things that I overwhelm myself and end up not doing anything. That's when I turn to social media and YouTube videos/Movies that make me feel like I'm living vicariously through someone instead of experiencing it for myself. Which inturn has turned me into a very boring person with not a lot to talk about.

I worry that if I choose one path that I'll regret it, like changing my mind or deciding I don't want to do something is a bad thing. But it's not, it's perfectly normal and human to change our minds. So why shouldn't I pick up everything I own and move with barely a penny to my name?

Plus I'm so curious as to how I'll adapt to such a different routine and my daily activities. What if I become who I've always wanted to be? What if everything falls into place and I'm overjoyed for once? Yeah you can see how much I dream of that moment can't you...

Starting Over

Constantly looking for a fresh start is a not-so-good trait of mine. It's like how everyone waits for New Year to start something. I'm constantly looking for my "New Year". I fall into the thought pattern that if I buy this one thing, or change this one thing everything will be better, I'll magically become this uber-productive charistmatic go-getter version of myself. But that's not realistic in any way, shape or form. It takes time and dedication, you can't just wake up one day as someone new. But oh if I could, if I could have that movie magic fairy dust sprinkled on me and have this epic transformation, boy would it be great.

I say I want to start over in a lot things in life but when I truly think about it, and you should consider this too, if I really did start over I might not have the same traits as I do now. Sure, I may not like some of my attributes, but overall who I am and the activities, music and movies that I enjoy, I wouldn't want that to change. My core values are good and I am proud of my values and morals, and what if that changed.

What if I didn't have to go through what I've been through mental-health wise? Yeah life might be easier in a way but I also might not be the same person. These experiences do shape us, even without us realising it. I'm not saying you have to go through tough times to be a good person, definitely not. But any experience good or bad will shape you and form who you are.

Are Movies Unrealistic?

Yes. The short answer is yes. HOWEVER, how unrealistic is the true question. I lowkey want to do an experiment seeing how much I could change in like a week. How short of a time could you completely change your life, it'd be speedrunning change. Maybe I will, maybe in a couple months I'll write a post saying how I took the leap, moved and did everything I've always wanted to do. Most likely not but lately it has become more tempting, I feel it would help with the feeling of being stuck and not progressing in life how I want to.

But back to movies. The big movie glow-up and life change arc was a staple in early 2000's romcoms and it did place an expectation that we can change our whole appearance and that would magically fix all life's problems (plus you fall in love). Films that come to mind are: The Princess Diaries, She's All That, Never Been Kissed, Devil Wears Prada, My Big Fat Greek Wedding, etc.

These movies I love. Okay, I'm not going to sit here on some morally high horse acting like I don't absolutely love these movies. Yes they have problematic beauty ideals, so it's important to watch them and not internalise the messages and instead just enjoy it as a fun movie.

I do still think you can take healthy inspiration from these movies. You can change a lot for sure as long as it aligns with who you truly are. Don't try to fit into societies beauty standards and perfect routines. BALANCE BALANCE BALANCE always.

My Life Overhaul

So when I think of the big changes I wan't to make for once it doesn't feel like a "I need to wakeup at 5am and be extremely perfect" no. Although getting up at 5am is fun and hey maybe I'll start doing it one day I'm more interested in making changes that build on the foundation of who I already am and who I desire to be. Like a self-discovery type beat. Putting time and effort into things that I've always brushed off or haven't made time for. But one of the changes is something that's scared me. Moving.

I always wanted to be away from the city. Growing up I used to think "who'd want to live in the city". But as I grow older I am starting to crave a different pace. Both for career purposes and also to explore what life would be like. Walkability and variety are such big pulls. It would be that new slate I've been searching for right? It could be my movie moment. The problem? Well me. I'm the problem...I'm the one stopping myself from doing this. There are a lot of steps in the process and that scares me and makes me feel unmotivated. So I guess I have a decision to make, stay where I am and try to change in an environment that has always felt like I'm doomed to be stuck here or move to a new place where I'd have to put myself out there, risk a few things really get out of my comfort zone.

That's my thoughts for today thanks for reading!

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